Feeling Lost...
Well as many of you know i'm taking summer school, in a vain attempt to boost my averages (and again for those who don't know cuz i'm on probation). Right now at Univeristy for the past 2-3 weeks you could the result of 4 or maybe 5 years worth of (going insane etc) University, as happy parents drag their Robe cladded son or daughter around taking pictures and lugging around a huge framed certificate... If you havent figured it out its Convocation right now (ie Graduation)
It makes me wonder, many of these people i'm assuming has a pretty good idea where they want to head off and what types of careers they may want to go into. However thats my problem... Personally I can't see a future for myself. The current path i'm directing mself in is through Life Science/Biology. But its the most "easiest" path for me right now. I've given up on specilist courses and higher prestige sounding career paths... My father is constantly going through the same lecture with me every 2nd or 3rd week regarding my route through Univeristy (i've given up on math, and he really wants me to take it up again) of course if Univeristy was more like Ward, and High School, i'll be glad to pick it up again and keep hacking at it till i pass. However just to prove my decision was what I believed to be the right one i recieved yet another letter from the Univeristy when i got home today...
"Blah blah blah by now you should have been notified of your "PROBATION" status and potential suspension if you blah blah blah don't shape up"
Oh geeze thanks for the constant threat of an axe hanging over my head... BTW did I mention its currently Midterms right now for Summer school?? Yes yes thank you dear Univeristy for this annoying threat... If by any chance i LOSE IT and go crazy could I please put the blame on you guys??
Well thats leads me back to the original question, just exactly where am I headed?? Essesentially my path in life to just take the route that I view are most accesible to me, and i would have a greater chance of succeding in, but career wise what will it bring me? I'm at a total lost in regards to that, i'm surrounded everyday by smart people who has pretty a good established idea of their life. Me nadda...
I'm gonna be stuck in University for 4-5 years, wasting a lot of my parents cash, only to get a piece of paper, and have no clue what to do with it... not really a bright prospect.
Which reminds me, the greatest mytery currently in my family. My 3rd sister (most succesful in my family IMO) has had her Bachelors in Chem Engineering for many years, has a good job, good life up north, has decided to head off to Denmark and get her Masters... (really need to ask her about tht when i see her online). Which just brings my whole question back up what does one do after they are ejected into the "real" world from expensive educated life...
Sigh Ideal fantasy... win the lottery and live a simple life, living off my winnings... that'll take care of it all... reality nothing close to it...
Sigh I'm realising that this blog is pretty much a bunch of random complaints jumping around... so that enough from me
It makes me wonder, many of these people i'm assuming has a pretty good idea where they want to head off and what types of careers they may want to go into. However thats my problem... Personally I can't see a future for myself. The current path i'm directing mself in is through Life Science/Biology. But its the most "easiest" path for me right now. I've given up on specilist courses and higher prestige sounding career paths... My father is constantly going through the same lecture with me every 2nd or 3rd week regarding my route through Univeristy (i've given up on math, and he really wants me to take it up again) of course if Univeristy was more like Ward, and High School, i'll be glad to pick it up again and keep hacking at it till i pass. However just to prove my decision was what I believed to be the right one i recieved yet another letter from the Univeristy when i got home today...
"Blah blah blah by now you should have been notified of your "PROBATION" status and potential suspension if you blah blah blah don't shape up"
Oh geeze thanks for the constant threat of an axe hanging over my head... BTW did I mention its currently Midterms right now for Summer school?? Yes yes thank you dear Univeristy for this annoying threat... If by any chance i LOSE IT and go crazy could I please put the blame on you guys??
Well thats leads me back to the original question, just exactly where am I headed?? Essesentially my path in life to just take the route that I view are most accesible to me, and i would have a greater chance of succeding in, but career wise what will it bring me? I'm at a total lost in regards to that, i'm surrounded everyday by smart people who has pretty a good established idea of their life. Me nadda...
I'm gonna be stuck in University for 4-5 years, wasting a lot of my parents cash, only to get a piece of paper, and have no clue what to do with it... not really a bright prospect.
Which reminds me, the greatest mytery currently in my family. My 3rd sister (most succesful in my family IMO) has had her Bachelors in Chem Engineering for many years, has a good job, good life up north, has decided to head off to Denmark and get her Masters... (really need to ask her about tht when i see her online). Which just brings my whole question back up what does one do after they are ejected into the "real" world from expensive educated life...
Sigh Ideal fantasy... win the lottery and live a simple life, living off my winnings... that'll take care of it all... reality nothing close to it...
Sigh I'm realising that this blog is pretty much a bunch of random complaints jumping around... so that enough from me
posted by dragonlord at 4:48 PM
1 Comments:
i feel your pain. stuck at school during the summer with crazy ass heat is no fun at all. :( but academic probation sounds very bad (my friend has it as well)...
most people don't know what to do with their life, hell i don't even know if i want to be an engineer (but shhh...), i figure we all find that out sometimes in our 30s and we'll go back and be one of those people you see in lecture halls who are balding middle aged with beer bellies.
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