Happy 21st - and emo/whiny talk?
anyways so yeah so for those who haven't caught it yet whether online or through the blog (though seems like no one has been reading it)... I've been doing 2 countdowns... and the first is as of now done. So whats the big news? its my 21st birthday... sigh i'm getting old.
Anyways Happy Birthday to me (oo look i have no life i need to wish myself Happy brithday :P ) lol
anyways now on to my little emo/whiny talk of the BBQ from this past Saturday (remember someone called me emo (emotional) ... so i shall talk about me being emo, or why i might have appeared emo on that day :p ) . BTW my blogs tend to be just the highlights of the week... not on how i feel and to be whiny... so enjoy.
so first of all people have a terrible case of being tardy... arrive at 5'ish becomes 7:30'ish... so i stood around chatting and all that for the time being... anyways it wasn't really hard to figure out that aside for being last minute the party was to celebrate b-day's (afterall people called me in the morning to make sure i showed up for the B-day person)
anyways typical of these parties, it quickly turned into a drinking party for many (hmm probaly 80-90% of the people were drinking? i really have no clue, practically everyone was drinking... and i wasn't, thats all i know). So I basically had nothing to relate to them once the drinking began, and I decided to stick around to be the "ride" for a few people, so i stayed, when I could have and maybe should have left early.
So basically aside for the bit of chatting prior to the arrival of say everyone, and the food, the night was a complete waste. Not to mention that they ended up celebrating "everyones?" B-day within the coming week. Now just FYI that does not include me, which leads me to this next point
I seriously have no social life (well when it relates to this broad group of people), and have lost contact/connections with many of these people... HECK i've been doing this countdown thing, and the mere fact that a) like 95% of the people didn't realise what it was for and b) these people did not question what the whole thing was for, meaning hey they don't even bother looking at my msn name, or to chat with me, (so am i someone just to meet with once or twice a year... actually thats pretty much it... isn't it sigh...) .
At one point someone asked me why I didn't let them know it was my B-day, this i guess would have to be my reply. I would rather keep things to myself then be a bastard/whine/get depressed and make a scene, especially since the organizer of the party and group, went through the effort of baking and decorating cakes for the B-day peoples I seriously did not want to speak up).
Also to the question of how much of a friend am I to them? hey i'm certain that a number of them should know my B-day was around the same time as the B-day boy, when we were still in HS.
So having spent the entire party in that state, I question myself throughout the night. Why do I even bother going to these parties? To try and maintain contact with them? If thats the case. I really shouldn't bother staying for much longer then an hour... because unless any person from my "closer" groups of friends were there theres really nothing for me to do.
anyways so far this only applies to the "general group" of high'ers (could it just be the mere fact that they're too smart for me? or that a portion of them graduated before me you ask? no that shouldn't be the case as a good number of people at HS stays behind, and we make friends with all grades... and I have many many brainy freinds (i'm the dumb outcast that drops the class average :P ), and i'm certain that I won't lose touch with them anytime soon.. and i still maintain contact with other HS friends. I have to say its probaly this group of people.
However I'm not afraid of losing touch with my "closer groups" of friends just yet... even though we all go to different Univeristy/College etc.
Anyways lets just end this its gotten so long where i have to edit out a lot of stuff. At leats it wasn't written the night/day after the party or it would be much longer and me being more stupid and whiny
So Cheers to my birthday, and to friends, and to the hope that we will still all be together in the years to come and more
>btw i wrote this blog 2 hours (and continued hacking and adding to it) before my actual b-day but i just find it much more cool to have the date show midnight of my b-day :p
Anyways Happy Birthday to me (oo look i have no life i need to wish myself Happy brithday :P ) lol
anyways now on to my little emo/whiny talk of the BBQ from this past Saturday (remember someone called me emo (emotional) ... so i shall talk about me being emo, or why i might have appeared emo on that day :p ) . BTW my blogs tend to be just the highlights of the week... not on how i feel and to be whiny... so enjoy.
so first of all people have a terrible case of being tardy... arrive at 5'ish becomes 7:30'ish... so i stood around chatting and all that for the time being... anyways it wasn't really hard to figure out that aside for being last minute the party was to celebrate b-day's (afterall people called me in the morning to make sure i showed up for the B-day person)
anyways typical of these parties, it quickly turned into a drinking party for many (hmm probaly 80-90% of the people were drinking? i really have no clue, practically everyone was drinking... and i wasn't, thats all i know). So I basically had nothing to relate to them once the drinking began, and I decided to stick around to be the "ride" for a few people, so i stayed, when I could have and maybe should have left early.
So basically aside for the bit of chatting prior to the arrival of say everyone, and the food, the night was a complete waste. Not to mention that they ended up celebrating "everyones?" B-day within the coming week. Now just FYI that does not include me, which leads me to this next point
I seriously have no social life (well when it relates to this broad group of people), and have lost contact/connections with many of these people... HECK i've been doing this countdown thing, and the mere fact that a) like 95% of the people didn't realise what it was for and b) these people did not question what the whole thing was for, meaning hey they don't even bother looking at my msn name, or to chat with me, (so am i someone just to meet with once or twice a year... actually thats pretty much it... isn't it sigh...) .
At one point someone asked me why I didn't let them know it was my B-day, this i guess would have to be my reply. I would rather keep things to myself then be a bastard/whine/get depressed and make a scene, especially since the organizer of the party and group, went through the effort of baking and decorating cakes for the B-day peoples I seriously did not want to speak up).
Also to the question of how much of a friend am I to them? hey i'm certain that a number of them should know my B-day was around the same time as the B-day boy, when we were still in HS.
So having spent the entire party in that state, I question myself throughout the night. Why do I even bother going to these parties? To try and maintain contact with them? If thats the case. I really shouldn't bother staying for much longer then an hour... because unless any person from my "closer" groups of friends were there theres really nothing for me to do.
anyways so far this only applies to the "general group" of high'ers (could it just be the mere fact that they're too smart for me? or that a portion of them graduated before me you ask? no that shouldn't be the case as a good number of people at HS stays behind, and we make friends with all grades... and I have many many brainy freinds (i'm the dumb outcast that drops the class average :P ), and i'm certain that I won't lose touch with them anytime soon.. and i still maintain contact with other HS friends. I have to say its probaly this group of people.
However I'm not afraid of losing touch with my "closer groups" of friends just yet... even though we all go to different Univeristy/College etc.
Anyways lets just end this its gotten so long where i have to edit out a lot of stuff. At leats it wasn't written the night/day after the party or it would be much longer and me being more stupid and whiny
So Cheers to my birthday, and to friends, and to the hope that we will still all be together in the years to come and more
>btw i wrote this blog 2 hours (and continued hacking and adding to it) before my actual b-day but i just find it much more cool to have the date show midnight of my b-day :p
posted by dragonlord at 12:00 AM
0 Comments:
Post a Comment
<< Home